I remember the first day I walked through the doors of Knocklee House. I was a broken man, very depressed, not knowing where I was going in life. I had lost everything to drink. I began telling my story to the staff and manager. As day by day passed by I found the help I needed was here. I began by attending AA meetings regularly. Gradually as time went by the fog began to lift and I started to feel at home there. For the first time in my life I was cooking and it made me feel great! After a few weeks my beautiful son came back into my life. Knocklee helped me so much putting that in place. I was able to have him as well as my partner and parents back. I cannot put it into words what this has meant to me. I started back playing my beloved football. The staff were instrumental in this, driving me to training sometimes twice a week. Gradually everything was falling back into place for me. But then I had an accident. My jaw was broken during a match. I felt ruined again. I feared for my bed in Knocklee as I had to go to Dublin for an operation. As soon as I returned to Tralee the manager assured me everything would be OK. Then she worked with me and my condition, even getting special food as I could not eat properly. Around this time I started to feel depressed again. I stopped talking I kept to myself and I was suffering. It wasn’t until the manager pulled me aside and talked to me it started to make sense and I needed to put myself first. I’ll never forget the feeling of relief after that. Then I was prescribed medication that I needed and it helped me and still does. Looking back I can see how far I have come. Yes, there were some blips along the way but people in Novas have always picked me up and helped to drive me on. I loved working in the garden putting up the greenhouse. What a laugh we all had! But most of all it was the help I will never forget. I have spent 6 months here now. I will soon start a new journey in my recovery but I will always carry Knocklee’s message with me. I know now I can talk about my problems and am not afraid no matter what happens in my life. To everyone who has helped – a really big ‘thank you’ for putting up with me! All I can say is it paid off!


